How CBD helped me through anxiety
My anxiety surfaced in 2016. On the outside looking in, I appeared very successful and put together. At twenty-six years old, I owned two houses and was performing at a high level in my job. I was starting my MBA and the future could not have looked brighter for me.
Yet, tragedy struck when I lost my third close friend in three years.
One to a fatal accident. Two to cancer. All before they were twenty-six years old.
I tried to remain strong and find salvation in pursuing my goals. I wanted to live my best life, as a way to respect the fact that they couldn’t continue theirs. I attempted to push forward on my path of success, but as the weeks and months went by, my mind began to fill with thoughts of my own mortality.
The constant fear of my own death was sucking the joy out of the life I had been blessed with.
While I was succeeding in some facets in my career and academically, I did not have the energy to take care of myself as I once did. I quit working out. I gained weight.
Then the panic attacks started.
My first panic attack began at work. Looking back, there is no concrete thing I can point to as the cause, it just happened. I thought I was dying. The room began to spin, tightness in my chest, racing heartbeat. After multiple episodes and two trips to the ER, I began to search for any means necessary to get over this terrible malady.
The fear of having a panic attack was encroaching on every aspect of my life. Every waking moment I wondered when the next panic attack would strike. I felt like every day was on autopilot. Life ensued and I went through the motions, but I wasn’t experiencing the world around me. I was stuck living in my head.
Grasping at straws, I bought my first bottle of CBD oil at a local grocery store. I prayed that I would find relief.
Within a few days of regular CBD consumption, I noticed that my thoughts were not racing as much. I started to regain awareness of my surroundings, breath the air, feel the ground beneath my feet. I was convinced that I had found the cure that I had been longing for. Of course, nothing can be that simple.
Within a few weeks, moments of anxiety began to creep back into my mind. Although it wasn’t as bad as it had been, I began to dread that the anxiety was going to take over again.
CBD oil was providing me a crutch to get through the day, but I quickly realized that it was up to me to utilize this crutch to prop myself up and change my habits in order to beat anxiety.
I noticed that my mind had been most clear in the morning since supplementing with CBD. I began to wonder what I could do with this clarity to better myself. It was that evening that I set my alarm for 5:00 AM and made plans to get into the gym for the first time in months.
Getting into my body was therapeutic. My first morning back in the gym was arduous and I would hardly call it fun, but I couldn’t help noticing how good I felt the rest of the day. I felt awake for the first time in as long as I could remember.
I continued this schedule for weeks and months along with CBD supplementation. I felt my health improving both mentally and physically. Not every day was great and many mornings I did not want to get out of bed–but I did anyway.
I began to bring healthy habits back into my life one step at a time. I started to pick up my guitar in the evenings instead of watching television for hours on end. I began to read books for pleasure for the first time in about a decade. As time went by, I felt myself returning back to the person I once was.
CBD oil provided me with a moment to pause, take a breath, and ground myself. I then took that moment to break the cycle of anxiety and I slowly started to feel whole again.
If you are reading this and are struggling with anxiety, know that you are not alone. You may think that your experience is unique, but you never know who else may share a similar struggle.
From the outside looking in, I looked like a successful young man full of zeal, but inside I was trapped. CBD oil provided me with a foundation to rebuild upon and it is a process that I still have to work at every single day.
CBD helped me, maybe it could help you. I found the power to align the life I was living with the values I hold closest to my heart. I discovered a way to break the cycle and find freedom through forcing myself to engage in the practices that once made me feel whole. It was hard at first, but once I got up and going few times, I felt my strength start to return.
I haven’t completely conquered my anxiety. I may never. But each day I try to do better than the day before.
In the past year, I have been using my new found energy to start Louisville CBD Company and bring you products that may put you back on the path to achieving your greatest potential. CBD is not a cure, but it may provide you with the support to stand up and take a step in the right direction.
Founder of Louisville CBD Company